Strange feeling

9 years, is a long period of time. 9 years ago and after is totally different. These nine years, I 'm very suffering because my mother left me. Today, she has given me a first call from United Kingdom. Indeed, I don't know such a feeling. Happy....nope.......sad....nope.......how should I symbolize my feeling.... I was so missing her even when I was dreaming also dreamed about her. why should you treat me like that. can you come back with me. I really hope that you will come back. I really need you. you break my wound again. I was so suffering.